The Great Team Players

I've found my team member!

This goes directly to (you know who you are) ^^ The sweetest thing ever!

When I am afraid,
You gave me braveness.
When I am grumpy,
You were my clown.
When I've failed myself over and over,
You were never failed to be my cheerleader.
When I am deadly nasty,
You gave me calmness and peace.
When I am frustrated,
you always allow me to vent it out.

And even if I am the most difficult human to live with in this world, yet you try so hard to be the best team player in our team. I thank you for your patience and courage and the never ending love provider. I thank you for not fixing everything that is wrong and allow me to be myself and fall sometimes.

"True love can blind you but at the same time if you let it, it can also open your eyes".

Fix Me?

Facing a tough time? Well isn't that life? There's so many approach in fixing a matter. Some dwell in pain, some drink, some smoke like a chimney (for all u know, i was one) haha.. all the temporary numbness we go for during our desperation.

But I realise, subconciously, there's a group of people that like to "fix" others to handle their torn up life or many the failure or mistake they've made in their life. Many time I find it annoying and disturbed when they like to boss you around and tells you what to do. More often, the favourite phrase will be "I was there before and I know. I dont want you to make my mistake". When something is broken, by nature.. everyone would want to fix it isn't it right? whether is your or others...is it an action of redemption? or a desperate call for a chance to fix their mistake?

I really don't understand, when your life is isn't that great and you are trying so hard to fix it, why are you so interested in mine? When mine are still intact and I am happy (in certain angle). It gets me all confused when accusation of me being bitter is so untrue.. Not to say untrue, i repharse, yes i am in bitter for other reason that more or less involve them. Sadly, often the fear of others will be your fear (hate it) and as often the love for others are as confused as a fucking maze.


Nobody will know yourself better than yourself. We are our own enemy. So fight your own war before you enter others.